One thing that is bugging me right now is 'silence'. I'm sure you think that I've finally lost it, I am now a nut, because how can 'silence' bug anybody? But if you were in my world and living with my brain, it would. I perceive 'silence' to be a cousin of 'nothingness'... you know, not knowing why, not knowing how, not knowing when? It's a really unfortunate situation, because there's nothing to build on, nothing to solve, and nothing to deal with... Of course it gets worse -because while one side of your brain is experiencing (and loathing) the silence, the other is busy taking in a wide range of information (useful or othewise), in order to help the big bosses make decisions. It is just so stressful! Part of you just want to stop, just go for a ride and have heavy metal music drown your thoughts and emotions. But you know that you can't do it. You have to work, you have to earn your keep. You have to keep living. Aaayiooo! When is this season going to stop? I need to breathe! I need sunshine! God help me... I'm worn-out.